The day you DIE !

Living in the shades of gray, no rationality, no logic,
clouded with emotions, you fight to find a way; a way to
take you to your destined path. Unanswered questions, half
truths,won't do any good.This self-inflected dementia has
to be cured.

Destiny,call it own-made or Scripted needs to be found.
Call it "Confusion" or "Intellectual Creativity" both need to
be Cleared.
Just so you can afford to, doesn't mean you should.

The day you question your Existence is the day u DIE.
U die, to rise again , like a phoenix rises from its own burnt
ashes giving life to a "new itself". You realise what you
were meant to do and you rise above this mediocre world of
yours.You Start living your life and set an example for this
world to follow.
And as Victor Frankl said
" What men actually needs is not a tensionless state but
rather the striving and struggling for some goal worthy
of him. What he needs is not the discharge of tension at
any cost, but the call of a potential meaning waiting to be
fulfilled by him."

You Learn to live and the day u DIE, is the day you're BORN.

Awakening!

And once again he sat in his room,thinking;

Why do things feel so different now??

What changed??

Scratching his head over some old memories,sitting alone
in the dark,he feels nostalgic,thinks of all that he did
and all that could've been done,he's sad,misses his
friends,he feels lonely.
He wonders how life was so great,how innocent relations
used to be,how pure and true friendship was.

Why it's all so complicated now??

We used to be peas in a pot,when did power and money and
fame became an issue??

Sitting there he wonders Maybe this is what growing up
is all about."Plasticity" is the only truth left.
and maybe "Growing Up",the only option.
Wishing is Wasting,he now believed.

With Tear-blinded eyes he goes to sleep leaving his
adolescence behind,still yearning for those days
where friendship was pure and love was all that we needed.

Forging Relations !

Ahhhhhhhh...ever felt the Chaotic Butterflies in your stomach go crazy when you see someone, the sudden aroma mesmerizing you and leaving u Drooling, the Skies changing color to a more romantic note;*sigh*
Why am i even asking???
Everyone feels it at some point or the other.
The very feeling called LOVE.
Yes, my friend you are love sick!
U have this strange liking for someone, u can't describe it, u can't accept it, u can't deny it, Its always there, its ineffable, its Godly.
It drives u crazy, u stop eating, u stop sleeping it makes u ecstatic.
U can't ignore it, how can u ignore something which is always there..!!

The feeling snowballs itself and finally u decide to do something about it.
The very first step is "LYING",yessss u lie, u try to impress the "ONE". Even your moral gray area becomes colorful. :D

All of a sudden u have a silver tongue, u seem to agree with him\her at every possible instance. Everything else seems hollow, all your victories, accolades seem like fool's gold. Every word from him\her hugs you, even a simple touch sends chills down your spine and even a single word of praise for u feels like heaven.
"Being on cloud nine", now u know what it means!
You know he\shes the one for U.
After a long list of lies, praises, heart rushes, sleep deprivation, hunger strikes finally the D-day comes, U NEED TO SPIT YOUR HEART OUT, but u fall back!
U can't find the courage, u have your tongue tied.
Negativity sweeps in bringing sadness and depression alongwith it.
I believe in the saying "If it’s meant to be, it will happen just the way you want it to be"...*phew* feels so relieved to leave everything on fate.
All the burden gone, GOD will do it for u.

Mind you he's got problems of his own.

Multiple thoughts cross your mind addling you.
Believe me friends, maybe fate bought you two together and maybe relationships are made in heaven but we are the ones who FORGE them cause if you don't it will all melt away.
All the Faith in this world won't help you.
Deep inside you know this but in the end the question still remains
"Do you have the Guts to listen to your heart?? "
Think about it!

Identity Crisis!

Are you Happy with yourself,the way you are,the way you react,the way
you treat someone??Sometimes these questions pop up in your mind and
you start to think;and mind you no-one's perfect,u see your potholes,ur
solecism,ur deliquencies,ur wrongdoings.
But wat do u do then??
Rectify them
or
just let them be.
After all "I am What i am".
When u are done with the soulsearching,scrolling through your
memories,u r still in a state of dilemma...thinking about ur previous
mistakes and how things would have been different;somewhere inside u
know u are wrong.
But why should i change,y should i care if someone's hurt,I am unique i
won't change myself. Ur ego,ur arrogance comes in the way;
Let me tell you ur ego eats u from the inside,one nerve at a time,and u
are left alone.
U can't laugh, u can't enjoy,u can't accept,even with hundreds of
people around you u are lonely. U find faults in Everything and
Everyone.Your EGO Shadows everything.
As time passes,u are desolated,Broken.
U need someone to talk to,u want to tear urself apart,and start over
again.But its too Late!
U drown in your own tears.

U are despirited,but god grants u a second chance,u rise to start
over.
You are a whole new person now,u don't feel so lonely,u start admiring
things. U feel alive.
U love ur new profile and u don't want to repeat the same mistakes that
u made in the past,but somewhere inside lies ur untamed
doppleganger,finding the smallest reason to bubble up.
And it happens,u struggle to keep it down,and then the question pops up
"Who I Really Am??"
Identity crisis happens.
U can't sleep at night trying to figure urself out.Is it really me??
The question haunts u.
*Sigh*Believe me its not worth going back,its not worth the efforts u
made to be who u are now.
Our personality is like a key for a lock,only one fits in!
We keep on trying different keys but only one gets in.
U know something your heart knows what it wants. Whenever u are at such
a crossroad, JUST LISTEN carefully to ur heart and u'll What's Worth
and What's Not!

The Cradle of life.

There was a boy who used to live with his friends,he used to hang around with them the whole time.Same college,same flat,same place to eat etc...he used to enjoy their company a lot.But then things began to change,people found their priorities,some became career oriented while some girlfriend oriented;he was still the same and tried to adapt to the new situation.But that aura was missing,then clashes began to happen,and they began to part their ways.
One day the boy decided that he won't let go of his friends and would completely change himself just for the sake of them.He started to avoid clashes,he started believing that "the easiest way to win a battle is to lose it",but sometimes when things seemed to be alright,his emotions will burst out and again he'll become the same old boy that he was.Same things repeated again and again,the boy will be heart-broken and will start over again.

But when will all this end?
DO their friends deserve this?
All these any many other questions circled around his head.His complete life was fabricated by the mixture of these emotions.Sometimes he felt lost,and just wanted to run away leaving all these things behind.
But that wasn't possible.
Somehow or the other we all share the same kind of story,where things don't go according to the plan.
Sometimes its better to let go while sometimes u need to hang on inspite of the pain.
Our life is like a cradle,it swings in both directions,
just like
day and night
happy and sad
but if u have noticed that the best things in the cradle are hanged just above you.Those things that really matter take the place right above us,and so even when the cradle stops to swing,what we see are those moments,those people,who have earned a place right above us.

The cradle of life continues to swing,so just go with the flow,enjoy the moments,Never expect,never ask,never demand and never assume...Just let it be.Becoz if it's meant to be,it will happen just d way u want it to be...

PS: The boy lived happily ever ever after.:[:D]

In your own way...

We live in a world of wannabes',always trying to be like someone else.We always have our idols,parent,friend or any random guy/girl,whom we adore and try to acquire some of their best qualities.This is what makes us unique, cause what we are is a blend of our own qualities and those which we acquire(and there can be no-one else with just the same perfect ingredients).

I think only 'ADAM and EVE' were unique in a true sense(cause they had no-one to look upto)..rest all are just mixtures.There's nothing wrong in this,everyone wants to be the belle of the ball.We come across a person(ofcourse not talking about the nondescript)and suddenly the butterflies in our stomach go crazy,we try to copy that person and in someway or the other we do acquire some of the qualities.Soon the butterflies are in a slumber and then again someone else comes.Life is all about changes,as you all know stagnant water gets rotten.
While reading all this some people might have just crossed you mind,who you want to be like,and believe me or not you are on the right path.
We are all unique,just like everyone else(Copied quote..lol),and in some way or the other someone will look upto you,cause we all are perfect "In our own ways.."!
Ps:-I love my Bed...

What life is all about!

Lying in bed,totally relaxed,no worries,you just stare at the ceiling and multiple thoughts cross your mind.You start to think about your life,your family,your friends,just lying their you start scrolling through you past,all the good thing the bad and the worst dance around you and still in that in that quiet moment you live them once again,you laugh at your problems and suddenly they all fade away,what is left are your memories,you begin to miss your friends and your even foes.
This is what makes life complete.People say "you should learn from other's mistakes",i say"make your own mistakes yaar!".Life is short,live every moment,make your mistakes,at least this way you will have something to remember on your death bed(lol).Problems are problems only till you face them after that you laugh at them.Don't believe me...Just think about the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to you...
Dude stop reading "think"...shockingly you will see a smile on your face..this is what life's all about.ENJOYING.
We can't make everyone happy at the same time,its the law of nature;you all know "energy is conserved"
LOSS=GAIN
HAPPY=SAD...
so don't worry about it and don't try to please everyone around you.I don't know the key to success but the key to failure is "TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYONE"!
Don't be a failure.
Someway or the other good things happen to you;you just need to look beyond your imperfections.
This is all what i wanna say.
PS:-Just lying in bed really makes you think..!:D

Confession of a lover...

I have my promises,i have my dreams. What i wanted was to be with you,things change,people change and so did you.i saw your pic today and i can remember everything ,each and every moment that we spent together,i don't know why did you change,why did you leave me.maybe it was my fault,maybe it was yours.
I have always kept my promises and i always will. Your betrayal fuels me,what you taught me i can never forget,you were everything to me,i learnt to care,to control my anger,to face every difficulties with confidence. You were my pride,my ego,my life.You meant the world to me.
I never could have imagined that things would turn out to be like this,being without you i feel that i have lost everything. What should i do?why should should i do?these questions keep bothering me.
Why should i even care about anything when u r not there to rejoice my happiness and to share my sorrow. But still i do just because of the promises i made to you.
You toyed with me,you lied to me but somewhere inside i know that you still care about me.
Just for the sake of those moments which we spent together and the promises i made to you i will move on.
Maybe one day you'll realize how much i cared for,how much you meant to me.
Someday you will ...

Betrayal

There's no place you can hide
there's no place you can go
you'll pay for what you've done
you'll reap what you've sow

Things will be better for me
i'll rise again
but what will happen to you
i'll drown you to shame

God is with me,not with you
what will you do
when the devil himself will strike upon you

I tried to make everything right
i wanted to things to be as they were
you were selfish and arrogant
and now it doesn't matter

I am not rude, you are just insignificant
Twisted by knaves and made a fool of yourself
You'll repent what you've done
What will you do when you'll just lie and burn

i was always there for you
but you didn't trust me
i tried to save you from the liars
but i was mis-taken
Now what will you do
cause i'm not with you
and the devil,WILL strike upon you

you'll pay for what you've done
you'll reap what you've sow
you'll be a loser again
and that's all i know!

The Road..

The road is too long

It seems it doesn’t have an end

No destination is known

All I do is walk alone

This road has ups and down

Am tired of these

As am with them from dusk to dawn

This is endless

And this is what I am going to remember for long

This is not easy

To cover up the journey being clumsy

Have to rise up

Face the sun

Defeat the burns

Tackle the turns

Lifes like this

That’s real

Lonely walks cant trouble me

Dark tunnels can’t fumble me

Coz where the tunnel ends

There will be light

The sun will be hard

And I will be bright!!!!....

{MST}